I am fine

“Im fine”

Im fine,

I'm trying

Im dying

I'm trying to prevent myself from dying

I'm trying to escape the want of dying

I'm trying to escape the thought of dying

I'm trying to end the urge of dying,

Im fine,

I'm lying

I'm not fine

I'm not okay

I'm not alright

The deep meaning behind “I'm fine” is not im dealing with it

Its i need help but I need someone to help me get that help

I'm just a kid,

I can't do this alone

I can't get the help needed on my own

I can't ask for the help needed on my own

I can't even say how I am feeling,

I am weak

I am thin

I am not worth it

I am not worth the stress

I am not worth this test

I am this way because of you,

You made me this way

You created these thoughts that are in my head

Of me wishing I were dead

And of me wishing it could just all end

And of me wishing that this pain would stop

And of me needing these thoughts to stop

And of me needing medication

And of me needing help

And of me needing a therapist

But you don't realize it,

You don't want to realize it

You don't acknowledge it

You don't understand it

You don't understand me