I am happy but secretly

I am happy but secretly depressed

I wonder if I will ever get better

I hear voices in my head

I see a future with him

I want to finally be happy with myself

I am happy but secretly depressed

I pretend that I'm not hurt

I feel insecure about myself

I touch his hand, hoping he'll hold it

I worry that I will never get better

I cry myself to sleep

I am happy but secretly depressed

I understand that I am a lucky girl

I say I can do the impossible

I dream I'll be emotionally strong

I try to hide my pain

I hope to have a good future

I am happy but secretly depressed.