I Am The Hard Truth
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The hard truth is that I was conceived in hopes of saving a failing marriage
The hard truth is I carry all my mother’s baggage
The hard truth is I have lived my life in bondage
The hard truth is the bondage was created by my mother’s lack of courage
The hard truth is I was raised inside a bubble of fear
The hard truth is I have to listened to my mother’s every tear
The hard truth my parents yelled and screamed ,and I heard the fighting year after year
The hard truth is I spent my childhood wishing I could just disappear
The hard truth is I saw my father beat my mother till her back was red
The hard truth other kids were afraid of the mythical monster under their bed
The hard truth is I was afraid of my father instead
The hard truth is I slept in-between my parents in fear if I didn't when I woke up my mother would be dead
The hard truth is I raised my mother not the other way around
The hard truth is when my mother left my father I was proud
The hard truth is I was relived to not have their fighting weighing my down
The hard truth is I find these words hard to write down
The hard truth is my mother had a fairy tale wedding to my step-dad and I was glad
The hard truth is when we moved for his job I didn't miss my real dad
The hard truth is living in a new place with no one I knew I started to feel bad
The hard truth is I got depression I felt so sad
The hard truth is not three months after we moved my mother got cancer
The hard truth is I couldn't help her I didn't have the answer
The hard truth is I am the balancer
The hard truth is I have been balancing my school taking care of mom and being a dancer
The hard truth is it took till recently to realize I'm not my mother's keeper
The hard truth is I'm discovering who I am away from my mother; my co-dependent leader
The hard truth is I am a dreamer
The hard truth is I want to be a leader and a teacher
The hard truth is that took me eighteen years to see
The hard truth is I believe
The hard truth is to survive I need to be free
The hard truth is that will take just being me!