I Am a Huge Mess

I am a huge mess

I promised mama success

Haven’t kept my word

And the excuses are absurd

But life isn’t easy in the ghetto

I try to escape but I can’t let go

In all the corners lie temptations

They prevent my graduation

And this brings frustration

I am seventeen

And I got my dreams

But something always gets in between

I ask myself if I belong in the streets

Is this just a cycle that repeats?

I am brown

Not the brightest and can be simplistic

But I can’t be proof to all these negative statistics

Its time to wake up

 And make up

Times are rough

And what I’m giving now is not enough

But I am tough

I am a fighter

A survivor

Everything is possible

I can overcome these obstacles

Now, I got a clear vision

And I’m making the right decision

Mama will be more than content

And I promise mama will stop paying rent

Now, when I look in the mirror

I see a man with a career

Not a failure

Bless education, for she is my saviour

Yes, I am a huge mess

But I am a work progress

and right now, I have an amazing mom to impress