I am at a loss

I am at a loss for words. Broken and confused is what I feel My bones ache with disparity and pain My mind is full of the memories of the life you left me with Sitting up at night waiting for you, you never come. Call after call but all I ever hear is silence How do you live with yourself? Can you sleep at night? Do you dream of me? You tell me I'm all you ever think about, your a fool. Forget my existence. What do I think of you? When I think of you I envision four concrete walls dripping with lost hope, and beds made out of broken dreams. What do I look like through the bars? I'm not the same little girl you left behind I'm not defending you anymore You will always have a special place in my life, but you will have to earn your place in my heart.