i am ME

I am Light

I have this theory that it is those people who have seen the most darkness that can comprehend the most light. I have seen a darkness that I would not wish upon my worst enemies, but instead of living in that darkness, or allowing it to consume me, I worked as hard as I could to fill my life with light. I wake up each morning and decide to let light guide me. I face each trial with a smile that radiates the happiness that I feel for life. I am light.

I am Strong

I have had hard times behind me, and I know that there are hard times ahead of me, but I will face each day head on and never back down. I have been beaten down and pushed to the ground by the people who should have loved me, but I chose to not be defined by those people. I chose to fight for the joy that I feel and to not let anything take that away. I am strong.

I am Irrational

I have made so many mistakes in my life, each with no good excuse or justification. Sometimes I do things because I want to, sometimes I do things to prove a point. There are times when I do something because it is exactly what I know I shouldn’t. I don’t fear when I should, and hide when I shouldn’t. There is no explanation to the way that my brain works. I am irrational.

I am Grace

I have been to hell and back. I have been told that I would never be 100% okay on my own, but I proved them wrong. I chose to let love fill my heart and surround my soul. I have looked into the eyes of someone who once loved me and watched him lie to me and cheat on me, but I forgive him unconditionally. I do my best to make amends when I have wronged someone with no expectation of forgiveness. I am grace.

I am Broken

I have allowed people into my life who I knew were no good for me. I let myself into the hands of people who lied to me. I have cried myself to sleep more nights than I can count. What can I say, I am just like every other person who just wants to be with someone who wants to be with me too. But time and time again, life tells me that this is asking for the impossible. I keep looking anyway. I am broken.

I am Beautiful

I don’t need a scale or status or anyone to tell me that I am beautiful, because I know  goodness radiates in me. I won’t waste time seeking for the praise or acceptance of the world. I spent too long listening to the people around me who said that I would never be pretty enough or good enough, and it stops now. Beauty isn’t something that you can truly see until you have stepped inside someone’s soul, and I finally took the time to step into my own soul. I cleaned out the waste and the garbage that my heart had carried for years, until the art of life was all that remained. I am beauty.

I am ME

I will never apologize for that and I will not let myself get lost, especially for someone else. I am me and will always seek to be the best version of myself and surround myself with those people who bring out the best version of me. But never will I change the things that make me who I am to please someone else. Why would I try and fit in, when it is my destiny to stand out? I am ME.