I should have broken up with you the moment you asked for me to kiss your cheek and turned your head last minute turning what was my first kiss into a prank for you, something to laugh about.
I should have broken up with you when you wrapped your arms around my waist and pulled me closer when I tried to pull away because the cashier was flirting with me.
I should have broken up with you when I wanted to leave the carnival and you said, "Babe, we just got here" as if time is more important than my discomfort.
I should have broken up with you when you asked me to hang out with you the day of my surgery and got upset when I said "No, I need rest" as if your need for attention is stronger than my painkillers
I should have broken up with you the night I realized that you liked the idea of having a girlfriend more than who your girlfriend was because I am not just an idea, and that is inconvenient for you.
I should not have missed you when you drove away from my house after an hour of making me for guilty for telling you "I don't think this is going to work"
I should not have called you later that week asking how you were, and giving more excuses lying through my teeth about how it wasn't you, it was me me not being ready me needing time on my own me not being for you me being the problem
With the words "Babe, we just got here" playing in my mind the whole time.