I Am Not You

I look in the mirror I hate what I see The person I’m looking at Can surely not be me? When did I become this? I’ve lost track of time My lips are painted red Those eyes can’t be mine This world has tried to change me Into something I am not I’m afraid it is succeeding It is a devastating thought I feel I am in costume On display for the world to see If only they knew the person behind it all Who goes by the name of Me My face is covered and painted My clothes are tight and torn It takes all my effort Not to look at myself with scorn How did I let this happen? When did I lose my pride? I want to be myself again Or at least be able to say I tried I want to wash off all this makeup Change out of these clothes I wear I want to let my hair grow back out natural And for myself again learn to care And while I’m washing it all away I’ll start to feel new and free A smile will start to appear on my lips And once again I will be me