I am scared

I am scared when you here these three words you imagine fear well i am scared of myself i am scared of what i can do i am scared of the pain and misery i can inflict on other people and feel no pain i know that this is wrong but it feels so right maybe this is the demon inside of me trying to go free but i take in that anger and hold it to keep others safe. i am scared  i am scared that i will hurt the ones i love and cause them to reget me from my family i dont want to hurt the ones i like i want to make children with my wife and raise the to love everyone but dont go eith the crowd