I am in silence

I am in silence,

I scream as hard as I could

But people can’t hear me,

I am in silence,

I hurt myself without even thinking about it

For a reason, a reason that I can’t get it out

They call it the “sweet escape”

The type of escape that tortures me

And tortures me every time I look at it,

I am in silence,

An invisible tape covering my mouth so I can’t SCREAM,

I am in silence,

Why can’t I just say 1 or 2 little words? 

And take the pain and the agony out of my system

It’s like the world doesn’t want me to say a word,

I am in silence,

If I bear myself in a whole

And never go out, will you still punish me

With my silence

 Can I just take one more breath till my last word goes

Out?

I don’t want to be in silence any more, I want to break free

But something like chains is not letting me be free

I am in silence,

Within a world where I am stuck

Being me and not being me

Can this poem go on forever?

Will it stop at one where I can SCREAM,

Break free, and be me?

I am in silence

At once I have found Pease in this place I call world

I have found peace in the inner me called life

I will scream, be free, and be me,

I am not in silence.