I am strong
I was going to write a pretty little poem
about words
But now my pretty little words shall turn a phrase
about words that parants say
which failure shall we alight today?
sting like blunt knives
thousands of punctured pins
become a cactus of inhospitality
parent,parent,parent,
whats that?
no kind words can be spoken without a means to an end
creul, manipulative, fire,
licking inside me, eating my heart
love forged by decayed hate
for soft? do you hear yonder Bellows? Screams? Shouts?
Through the cracks of a weathered door
but still where is the meaning?
bickering like children, who is the real adult here
yet the child through the flicker beams of sooty light
understands more
danicng across the floor from the terrible door
goes thunder, goes argument
describe me i am
moody,niave,child,dependent,
they say
i am living the battle feild that is the dollhouse, the plastic soldiers, the glass heart
bombarded by doubt
describe me, i am
anxiety, confusion, guilt
its crippling its hate
17 years ive been told to listen
17 years ive been told im a child
17 years and ive been told i have no voice on the matter
18 years and i relize i am allowed to get mad, i am allowed to cry, i am allowed to be human,
thank god for the tears are upwelling
and a mantra bubbles forth im telling
see alll the things im spelling
my throat constricts and words alight upon a moistened tounge
read my lips
I am strong