I am Suffering

I am suffering 

in ways no one can see and 

won’t say. 

My heart  is crying 

but my eyes are dry, 

My mouth spits venom on his name but.

I feel sorry for him, I loved him.

He liked me. 

I empathize his thoughts,

he listened to mine. 

I cared about his pain, 

he noticed mine. 

I waited on him, 

He rushed me. 

Not rude, just clueless, 

Blind to the love that was so powerful and deep

it filled my heart to the brink. 

So what did I do 

with the unrequited love? 

I turn it to stone 

and it built a wall 

never letting another  soul in. Only watching, 

Waiting for a soul 

curious enough to try and climb it. 

I hate the fact that I miss him,

He is ruining my thoughts indulging in the burning juice

Sleeping in daylight because 

the night is too loud 

he was a thief in the night 

He stole a heart 

never got caught, 

he walked away 

red handed.