I am Worthless

Worthless.
helpless.
Hopeless.

These are the words rattling in my head

As I lay down night after night 

And fight the demons day after day.

No rest for my weeping eyes.

No peace for my aching heart.

Will I ever see where I'm going?

Will I ever know what I'm doing?

The whispers say I won't.

Weak.
Stupid.
Ugly.

I want to silence these damn voices.

I can barely think or sleep or eat.

I can't even decipher myself from the noise.

My skin grows pale .

My body grows weak.

Will I ever get through this?

Will I ever see the light?

My demons tell me no.

Pathetic.
Useless.
Unworthy.

I just want some peace of mind.

Just a minute without this crushing darkness

Would be heaven in this hell I'm living

Would be heaven in this hell I'm living.

The whispers consume my mind

As Darkness consumes my body.

Will I live through this?

Do I even want to?

How long can I tell myself yes?

Dead.
Dark.
Defiled.

My head droops under the weight,

Sorrow is a heavy burden that only gets heavier.

My body stiffens with paralysis,

It gets ever harder to get up and live.

The bed envelops my body

As Sorrow engulfs my thoughts.

Will I ever feel better?

Will I ever be just okay?

I wish I knew.

I am worthless.