i am/blank mind

I am Black I am brown I am full lipped I am dark eyed I am tired i am exhausted Lord send mercy for I might just crash I used to think I was a mermaid now I cant even swim through the ocean of thoughts that surround me I am full Class and grace until I get home rushed with faith I am blank What am I I lose myself crybaby me sensitive eyes push me pull me what is me I dont know what life means bring me back to reality i am a bit messy reflection of my mind i am cursed my body loved by some hated by me is my body even me is it an object he still thinks about A thief he so roughly took nothing yet so much of me I am green with envy red with rage why does he get to get away what impunity O Lord renew me I dont feel right watchout here comes the white paint am i leaving me in the grass fields of leaves i love to crush and break and destroy i want to dissolve thanos snap me #whyamialive im nor cool or sweet pretty neat black or white neat or nice messy or free blank and me mind freezee let GO of me