I Can Never Forget
Everywhere I go
Everywhere I look
All I see is him
He's always on my mind
He's always in my heart
He's always there
He's everywhere
I try hard to be strong
I try to show no pain
But the hurt is always there
It never goes away
It's written
In my heart
And on my face
No matter
What I say
Or what I do
I can't forget
I loved him
I still do
He was my everything
And despite the fact that I am nothing to him,
He's STILL everything to me
He makes me laugh
He makes me cry
He brings me joy
He brings me pain
He gives me butterflies
He gives me heartbreak
It's a rollercoaster of emotion
It's love
It never changes
It never stops
It never goes away
There's constant love
But constant pain
I try and try
But always fail
I lose him every time
I lose us
I can't give up
I can't go back
I can only hope, pray, and dream
I still love him
With all my heart
He means the world to me
Through the days,
I force my smiles
And at nights,
I cry myself to sleep
Always waking in the night
This hurt
This loss
This incompleteness
None of it is right
For years
I've feared the loss of him
And now it's come to life
I've lost my crush
My partner
My best friend
And just a chunk of life
Every day
I remember
Thinking about him
A spiral of thoughts
That never seems to stop
Every night
I cry out
Dreaming of him
Longing to have it all back
A hurt that never goes away
I cannot be strong
Not through this
I cannot let it go
I cannot make the pain stop
I can only remember
I can only cry
I can only miss him
I can only love him with all of my heart
I can only wish him the best
But I can NEVER forget