I Cannot Be Loved

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21229
United States
39° 16' 54.39" N, 76° 41' 35.6784" W

Dark is my soul.
Cold is my heart.
I built up these walls to shut everyone out.
Not for myself, but for everyone else.
I’ve done terrible things in the past,
And more will be done, I am sure,
For history repeats itself.
I am drawn to the dark side,
A magnetic pull.
Please,
Do not follow me into the shadowy abyss.
Stay far away.
Those who say,
“Don’t go into the light”
Have no idea what they are talking about.
I would rather be blinded by warmth than left in the dark.
But the nasty truth is this:
I can’t change who I am.
This is just me.
It’s in my blood, my DNA.
No matter how much I try, I will always be living a lie
The me that you know is not really me.
It’s a façade.
A mask.
A lie.
Please do not try to love me, for I cannot be loved.

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