i cant

god i constantly feel like I'm screaming 

i feel like I'm just crying into peoples ear drums 

begging them to help me

oh please oh god please help me

i constantly feel like I'm clutching their hands

just pleading for them to notice I'm not right

god i feel like I'm trying to expose myself

i feel like I'm trying to find reasons to get better

but i guess i must be really quiet 

or i guess i must just barely be here

i know its my fault that I'm\ never heard

but i just cant figure out how to raise the volume

from a cry in my mind

to a cry from my mouth

i cant find the strength 

to let people know

im not

okay