I Can't Deal With This

How does one describe it?

When someone they trusted

  violates them?

It's too difficult for me to say...what it really is.

She took advantage of 

  the situation

  and me, I guess.

She took off my clothes, one by one.

As I trembled and squeezed my eyes shut,

she slowly pushed a finger inside of me. Then another.

I was shaking.

Penetrating and sucking and

rubbing and fucking.

When I didn't really want any of it.