I Cant Tell You.

When I opened my eyes, And you weren't there, I realized that... I don't want to be away from you anymore. I know that "sorry" Is just another word That doesn't mean shit anymore... But I really don't know what else to say. I've lost the words I wanted to say. I can't say that I can't take being without you. That when you're gone, My veins ache. That my heart stops Because my blood won't flow Until I hear from you. I can't tell you That my lungs won't breathe Until they know that the scent of you Will be the first thing that fills them. I can't tell you That my tears have your name. Because I cry out for your heart, And your love never hears. I can't tell you That the side of the bed you slept on, Is still unmade. Because even after that one time you came over for support, I couldn't bring myself To touch the same thing you did. Even my heart. Its still messy, But I still hope that you'll come back And make it up one day. I can't tell you that I love you. Because those three words have hurt you More that I care to remember. And even if it hurts me to keep it in, I'll wait for the day Those words mean as much to you again As they do to me. I can't tell you That I'm weak. And a coward. And pathetic. Because I'd be too afraid that you'll respond with, "I know." I can't tell you That my heart won't breathe And my lungs won't beat And I'm mixing up my words Because my knees get weak When I see you. I can't tell you that I love you. But even though this is not what you wanted to hear, I can tell you that I'm sorry I may never be able to tell you What I want to. Because Society won't let me tell you. I love you.