I can’t

I can’t anymore

I can’t pretend

That it doesn’t hurt

I can’t pretend what you did was right 

I can’t pretend that I’m okay

Because what you did was wrong

You hurt me 

Again and again

I shouldn’t have told

I shouldn’t have wasted my breathe 

Fighting for you day and night 

While everyone fought for you

Remember 

Who was there 

Remember who was in the hospital 

I mean would you care

If I was gone

Would you all care

They say time heals all wounds

But I don’t believe that 

I don’t believe people can change

I don’t believe that people don’t get justice

I don’t believe what people tell me

Because inside I’m not the same 

Because inside I’m torn 

If you look into my eyes 

You see dark 

I wanna be unburied 

But my truth is not like that 

My truth is far from that 

I’ve been hiding

And honestly don’t wanna

But I can’t expose my deepest secrets 

I can’t expose the 

Fact I’m angry 

The fact I’m suffering

The fact I go through it alone

The fact I’m not normal 

And don’t tell me no one is normal 

Because I am way far from what others think normal is.

Nobody really cares what you are 

Nobody really cares at the time 

I wanted change

I wanted something different

Then the life we were dealt

I wanted what other kids had

But I never got it

I’m to old now

Almost adult, hate that word

Adult

Why should I 

Well because 

My CHILDHOOD was TAKEN

Something I will never get back 

Something I can’t change

I feel bad enough 

I won’t be home 

For the holidays 

Does anyone get that 

While others have fun 

Partying it up 

While I’m stuck I’m stuck 

In foster care

Probably never getting out

Court comes up soon 

Wonder

What’s gonna happen 

Please judge

Don’t say no 

You can’t

You can’t say no 

It’s not fair

I deserve 

What other kids have

Judge

I deserve it

You heard it before

It’s damaging to me

But you don’t care

It’s not you that’s hurt

Because of the broken system

So please don’t get mad

When I say I’m angry 

At the fact that 

There is no justice

That there is no life in dhs

there is no normal to this life

There is no friends in the system 

There isn’t anything

So tell me judge

Should I give up 

I believe so 

Because I had a time

Where I thought I was going home

But each time it’s been broken down.

So thanks