I Could Show You

I could show you, 
but you still would not understand.
I could open up my mind to you,
but your conclusion would still
vary from the truth.
There is no simple 
explaination for what 
I have become.
I am not this happy person,
the one that you have come
to know.
You have not seen her lately
because I am slowly killing her
as I venture deeper into the 
valley of the unknown.
Where the people who 
have already lost the game 
continue to play.