I Couldn't Tell You Why

I was convinced I couldn’t keep us alive

I persuaded myself that our relationship was full of deception

That I wasn’t worth your generosity and tenderness

I cut off 6 months of gentle hugs and warm smiles

I left 6 months of late night calls and never ending laughter

All because I couldn’t accept that I was enough

I repeated clichés I told myself I’d never say

I echoed every excuse said to me since the first ending

“It’s me, not you, I promise.”

I expressed my sleepless nights of insecurities and doubts

I saw your despair and confusion with every word

You needed an explanation, one I couldn’t provide

I am sorry, Em.

I should’ve told you why