I DIDN'T KNOW

I Didn't Know / Dark Angel 

The cold winds blow the  ice off my truck window  
Why drive home ; 
Changes in my life is on stop , 
My mind continues to wondering what Dark Angel is going to do next ! 
Tumbling walls of childhood dreams , 
Breaking glass of memories , 
Oh how all of this kills me , 
It’s a lie that “change is good” 
I think I should leave that nasty past behind me , 
But it always haves away of coming back , 
It was an accident when I got with Dark Angel , 
An echoing cry accompanying my mind , 
My heart had almost gone numb , 
I feel in love with a man that I thought was true , 
But with time all he did was make me blue , 
I didn't know much about his past or his life , 
Until one day he ask me to be his wife , and I said no I was to young , 
The darkness that was in his eyes on that September night , 
He started stalking me on everything I had ever did , 
An aching future I don’t want to know , 
And yet I keep seeking now, 
A way to make this pain go away that Dark Angel gave , 
Clasping hands of friends of his , 
He has all his family and friends to help him in stalking games  
To watch over me , 
I keep getting by day to day , 
But by night my pains get overwhelming ,  
He cries out my name as I sleep , 
Dark Angel even makes his way in my dreams , 
My heart is a part of his nasty game ; 
To make me see things his way , 
Our eyes meeting through a crowd of noise of the night, 
Like he has a spell on me walking around like a clown , 
With a flash of a smile upon my face like everything is OK, 
Mysterious and clandestine, perhaps? 
I apologize I cry with that look in his eyes , 
I didn't know my heart had been playing me as a fool , 
I didn't know I was with a man of the night . 

Lilly Emery (C)