I Didn't Know How Much You Wanted Me Gone

You say you love me,

Yet you always put me down!

You think you're helping,

But you're making me frown!

You took the only thing I could put my emotions into,

You don't know what you just did to me,

You're digging my own grave!

I didn't know how much you wanted me gone!

The feeling of a blade running across my skin is the pain washing away,

Don't worry, 

I'm used to it,

Since you took my life away!

Writing was the way I got everything out,

But you took that away from me!

I feel so alone because of you!

I didn't know how much you wanted me gone,

You should've told me sooner,

I would've made your life easier,

Just please,

Tell me you loved me,

What did I do wrong?

That's okay,

I didn't know how much I wanted me gone, either.

All I seem to ever do is cause problems.

I'm just like my mom, you told me.

I just ruin everything, you told me.

PLEASE STOP REMINDING ME!

Lord, if you're listening, 

Why am I still here?

Nobody wants me,

So why do you care?

I didn't know how much you wanted me gone,

You should've told me sooner,

I would've made your life easier,

Just please,

Tell me you loved me,

What did I do wrong?

That's okay,

I didn't know how much I wanted me gone, either.

Why do I hate myself so much?

Why do people waste their time on me?

I'm not worth it,

Just let me be gone, please.

Just let me be gone,

The world would be better off,

Without having to deal with me,

Everyone hits me, like I'm a game of golf!

I didn't know how much you wanted me gone,

But please don't get mad once I give you what you want!

You don't understand what you're doing to me,

You're digging up my own grave,

As far as I can see.

I know everyone wants me dead,

Please stop rubbing it into my face,

GO AWAY,

It's not some sort of race!

I see how much trouble I cause,

I don't mean to be such a bother,

But when you see what I'm going through,

Maybe you'll be more like a mother.

Please stop reminding me of what I do,

I know I'm not the best,

But I'm still human,

So give it a rest!

You say you understand what I'm going through,

But how could you know?

Every time I ask for help,

You always say no!

You took the only thing that helped me with my feelings,

Just to see me fall,

You don't understand,

It's like talking to a wall!

I didn't know how much you wanted me gone!