I don't care

I never wake up just to impress others
I don't want to be another
I want to be gone
I don't want a spawn
So I say these words with all my heart
I'm sorry but I can't be what anyone wants me to be...I'm torn apart
I can't be your light in the darkness
Because my faith and hope ran out and I'm lifeless
I can't make your life better all I can do it make it worse 
I am a disease, a curse
I am not a role model for the young, nor for the old 
I'm not bold or couragous..i'm cold
I don't care about anything anymore, not even myself
I gave up long ago and placed my story on the shelf