i don't know

I don't know what to do

Cause its been eleven years

Since i lost you

And i'm hurting

Everyday i wake up without you

Makes me feel so worthless

I know everyone says it's okay

You'll be okay

Like they know what i'm going through 

I’m not going to be okay

And there's isn't a damn thing that they can do

I cry a lot cause im emotional 

But everything i do 

I try to keep on holding you

It hurts me to know that you're gone

And yeah maybe you're in a better place

Sometimes i wish i could still hear your voice

The only thing i remember is the smile on your face

The day you died i didn't really have a choice

Everything about you i packed away like a toy

I didn't want to remember all that joy

Now all i can think about is how when 

I put those memories away i lost them

I never thought id look back and need them

I miss you so much every single day

And nobody truly asks me how i feel

Nobody really wonders why the love i give is never real

I'm sorry if i've turned out so be such a disappointment

Yeah i know things have been rough 

And yeah i know things have gotten tough

But through it all

You've never lost my love

Even if i dont show it 

I'm miserable on the inside 

I dont even really know what to do with my life