I Don't Understand

I don't understand

Why i had to move and leave all my friends

Why I had to grow up quick at an early age

Why was i Given another chance?

But most of ALL

Why they hated on my best friend and killed him at the age of 15

Why i'm attracted to girls that don't like me

Why was I the only person in my family given this chance?

Why my brother did all stupid things at a young age

What I understand the most is

Why I'm determine to go after my dreams

Why my little sister and nephews look up to me 

Why my big brother is so hard on me

Why I'm gifted with this talent god has given me