I don’t know what to do

I’m so terrified of life right now, and I don’t know what to do 

I’m so terrified of every fresh memory I just went through right now, and I don’t know what to do 

I’ve cried all night long tonight, and I don’t know what to do

I begged and begged and it wouldn’t stop, and I don’t know what to do 

I feel so mistreated and miserably heartbroken, and I don’t know what to do 

I want to scream at someone or get in my car and hit somebody, and I don’t know what to do 

I’m scared to go back to sleep because it felt like reality but worse, and I don’t know what to do 

I am scared I will not be able to truly express myself now without pain and distress, and I don’t know what to do 

I am now feeling scared to be a mom, and 

I don’t know what to do 

I hate my life right now, and I don’t know what to do