I Feel

I feel like a small fish in the vast ocean

Not in the big fish, little pond notion

I feel exposed with little refuge

My body is too small and the waves are too huge

I feel like I’m at the bottom of the food-chain 

Like that’s the only value I can gain

I feel like you look like bioluminescence 

You light up the depths with purely your essence 

I feel attracted to your beautiful glow

So I rush to find you deep down below

I feel colder as I leave my habitat for you

The water turns darker away from the light, no longer blue

I feel the need to see you through the light you emit

I’m more vulnerable than I care to admit

I feel no warmth from your self-sufficient light

I’m starting to wonder if this decision is right

I feel you lurk closer in the blinding dark

Your glow was too graceful to ever be a shark

I feel my eyes strain as you reveal yourself 

You were an angler fish and I had doomed myself 

I feel the freezing water get redder and warmer

Your teeth pierce through my skin and weak armor

I feel defenseless to your obvious trap

My future and life you eagerly kidnap

I feel numb as I surrender myself to you

Your beauty was a trick through and through

I feel a part of myself merge into your body

The cycle of energy is ever so gaudy

I feel the need to close my eyes, but when I do

They open again as part of you 

I feel hideous and evil with no escape

You become my new wretched landscape 

I feel the abused become the abuser

I struggle to find who is the true loser