I feel paralyzed when I

I feel paralyzed

when I try to cry

nothing comes from my eyes

and I'd like to know why.

Is it because I'm numb to the truth

or is it because of my past.

I want to feel alive,

but I just feel like trash.

I never know how to feel

and can't understand what's real.

I try to open mind,

but I also keep my thoughts inside.