I feel so small

I feel small when you see how I look next to people, but what I see is knowledge and looks and how I could look better but I don't. When I see breathtaking people all I can do is stare at their gorgeous eyes and hair and wish a small hole would come through and take my soul. I feel small when I see young girls being way smarter or prettier and I feel small when I just see any person better than me. My heart hurts comparing myself to people who don't even know me but if they knew me what they would think of my horrible face. Being small makes my stomach turn and makes me lay in bed with my hands flat on my face wondering what mistakes I've made. Some might say everyone's the same but that's the biggest lie ever said.