I Forgot

The pain grew old,

So my feelings I sold.

My heart turned cold,

Or so I am told.

That’s fine.

I forgot.

Then, I felt like butter.

My heart began to flutter

As my voice started to stutter.

I fell in another emotional gutter.

That’s fine.

I forgot.

Tears threatened to fall,

No longer contained by my mental wall.

Crumbled to a crawl, my ego failed to hold me tall.

An internal screech, no one answered my call.

That’s fine.

I forgot.

Voices mislead,

Things said,

Actions dread,

Dirty head.

This is me ‘til I’m dead.

I remember.

Without vengeance, wear the blame.

Without regret, shed the shame.

Without hesitation, take the fame.

Without aim, challenge the game.

An untameable force,

I remember.

Spiteful remarks to ignore,

Agony was felt no more.

Emotions fled my core

As I was the only one to adore.

Have I been here before?

I forget.