I hate you

Fuzzy brain,

I'm lightheaded

I swear I'm not insane

I've already said

I do it to cope

Believe it or not

Yes of course

I'll hope

For my heart strings to not be in knots

And for my thoughts to be heard

Not to get worse

I've hung onto your every word

Told myself to keep going with so much force

I feel like I'm not good enough

Talk to me about how she's better

I'm hopeless and sad, not at all tough

I have poured remourse into every letter

I'm selfish yes,

but I have a heart

I can feel the pain too

You've made me love you from the start

But sometimes I hate you.