I have lost

I followed my heart

I loved life once again

I gifted you all from the start

And ended up in Sin

I gave you my heart to hold

And watched as it ran red

Your heart was not but cold

As you squeezed mine till it bled

I have not the courage to say

the extent to which I've been broken

As night turns to day

And the noose slides around my neck and I become unspoken

Unable to escape that which I loved

I find my darkest weight

In the face of being unloved

And before arriving at the final gate