I hosted a party

I hosted a party At times it was a party of one I played the terribly tumultuous tunes About what my life had become I hosted a party At times I had reluctant guests However once they had their fill They left in search of rest I hosted a party That continued intermittently for years And unlike Studio 54 The IRS was not one of the fears I hosted a party About all of my life's woes I used the time to escape Even if I did it alone I hosted a party That I eventually chose to leave Because I could no longer Myself deceive Eventually and thankfully I started to sober And with a more clear perception The party was over And like Studio 54 It came with a cost But not in money But in years lost I hosted a party That at times lasted from night through Dawn And now I wish for a way To have those years undone