I JUST WANT TO SIT AND CRY

I remember I was a child you an adult. My memories as a child I just want to sit and cry I remember The happy times as a child the holidays birthdays and Christmases Then I see you face, house, bedroom, and all the other places you abused me I just want to sit and cry I remember All the abuse and those words you would say to me. Its your fault you deserve it. No one will believe you. They will take you away if you tell. I just want to sit and cry I remember All the bad relationships even an abusive one. I see your face laughing. I think no one will even want me anymore I just want to sit and cry I remember Meeting my soul mate finally feeling happy. Then i see you face angry I just want to sit and cry I remember Telling my soul mate. He puts his arms round me. Say im here now and always will be. No one will hurt you now. I just want to sit and cry I remember Getting married and having children.Been happy. Then i see your face. I Worry something may happen to them I just want to sit and cry I remember You may have gone. But I can't forget all the pain you have left behind. I suffer with depression and anxiety. Found it hard to trust anyone I just want to sit and cry I remember I have an amazing family and friends. Finely im getting the help I need. I'm a survivor. I can't let you win I won't as I will come though this a stronger amazing woman I wont sit and cry