I killed me

Yes I killed me , 

I love you more than I love me , 

I found me then I lost me , 

I got caught up in this world , 

I forgot about me , 

I forgot about what I wanted , 

I forgot about my dream of having all my children again , 

I lost sight of my versions, 

I lost sight at what was important, 

I lost sight of me & my father dream after he died , 

I lost faith , 

I lost all my tools I have develop in my life ,

I lost all the tools that was passed down to me , 

I lost sight at having somebody loyal in my corner , 

Someone who keeps it real with me ,

Someone who has my back & my front , 

I found that now , 

But I’m not who I wanna be , 

I’m not where I wanna be , 

But you I choose him , 

Or do I loose him ,

& find me , 

I’m confused I’m lost , 

I love this man with all of me , 

I can’t stand to be without him even when I’m mad , 

When I’m hurt sad or happy he the one I wanna run to , 

I’m scared how do I get over this fear , 

Why am I’m so broken that I can’t fully open up to him the way I want , 

I can be faithful, 

I can hold him down , 

I can cook for him , 

I can listen to him but I can’t hear his words with a clear ear , 

It’s always seem negative,

Why am I so used to negative things , ?

Why am I like this ,?

Who can help me ?

God show me the way 🙏🏾

Iam confused on my life ,

I know what I want & im demand to get it ,

I wanna do it right I don’t wanna loose him or myself ,

Can you show me the way ?

Can you guide me ?

I want this Im willing to do the work ,

I’m willing to do the time I want my children & my man !