I Lay Awake at Night

I lay awake at night Shutting my eyes For a moment before the darkness sets in Swirling patterns dance around The inside of my eyelids While my head feels as though It is being shaken The twisting memories Of every painful moment Cause my eyes to fly open Each moment of being pushed down Let Down Laid Down Haunt the inside of my eyelids Why is it that they have not escaped? Trapped forever in the darkness Only brought to light when I dare Shut my eyes I lay awake at night Shutting my eyes Praying for the memories to leave