I lie

Every morning when I wake up I lie
I tell myself everything will be okay
I go a put on a smile
It takes everything for me to smile
It takes everything for me to pretend 
Every day when I work I lie
I tell myself everything will be okay
I pretend to be happy
People hurt my anxiety 
My anxiety hurts me 
Every evening I lie 
I tell myself my family is fine 
I duck my head as they fight
I go to my room and hide
I hate my room when I hide 
Every night when I lie in bed I lie
I tell myself I don't want to die
But everything hurts 
And I want it to put an end to my lies.