I Lied

I am sorry I smiled

 

 

 

I am sorry the last thing you saw was me smiling because I lied

 

Lying is so easy for me, just one two three 

 

Smile for the picture, grin for the people to make the world your picture

 

 

 

I am sorry I laughed, I meant to cry 

 

I wished on a candle for something to change, all I got was another day

 

My mouth just betrays me it curls up in a motion it cannot refuse and I- well I love the lie it gives

 

I love being perfect when I know I am going down while my smile turns up

 

 

 

Numbers of scales and fake smiles and open doors

 

Closed doors make me happy, because at least then I can look the way I know I should

 

 

 

I am sorry I lied on the phone and said I love you, I meant to say don’t hang up I need to hear your voice to bring me back to life

 

I am sorry the call interrupted your work, I will just have to remember not to be sad next time. 

 

 

 

Look at me and realize I am lying to you, look and realize I am sorry but these pills are swallowing me and I find it harder every day to breathe. 

 

 

 

Remind me to lie- I need to lie

 

Look at me and don’t realize my lie- that will be better at least one can feel happy that way

 

 

 

I am sorry I smiled, I guess I just love to lie.