I lost my brother

They not as strong as us 

They gonna judge us before we make it 

They gonna paint a picture of this person we is 

But they would never understand the pain that I feel 

They would Neva understand that you loved me forreal 

Losing you was a hard pill to swallow 

I still act shallow 

As if one day you gonna come & sit on my bed 

Seeing like that for the last time 

Messed me up 

I had nobody to talk to 

I blame me for not begin their for you 

Even though I saw you an hour before I got the news 

I never told you how proud of was 

I never told you how much you grown from when I met you 

I let some disagree push us away 

Now you gone & I can’t even call my brother 

When I should be outside all sad you would come & talk to me 

You would tell me it’s gonna be alright 

Who gonna tell me that now 

You was so proud of me when I stared working 

You said it wasn’t much but it’s a start to take care of ours kids

You was a brother I never had 

You didn’t judge me 

You listen to me 

You gave me advice 

You gave me a hug when I needed it 

When you died I got acusse of having sex with you 

So I didn’t grieve you 

Instead I blame you 

& you wasn’t to blame