I lost my life

We was once there together living in hell but praying for better

It was all worthwhile you raised me with care from a infant to a kid 

From there i am here we moved as a unit was joined at the hip the heart 

And the head...my mother my world my lady my girl my life and my pearl

To say the least we survived sickness the love that we shared we both

Was dependant on eachother and dope but we did it together which

Allowed us to cope  i was 25 we still shared a bed the nightmares i had

Was cured when your here i knew that one day i'd face my worst fear

I'd have my worst scare when you disappear did god ever exist?he left me 

Alone and he took her away the day that she died the last time.i prayed

Faith is a thing of the past gods will is a pain in the ass he took my mom away

I thought if i prayed he take harm.away he took my heart and my arm away

He took my will to live he took my reason to get married have a home or have kids

Now i just pray the day arrives when i enter the land of the dead me.and mommy 

Reunite im alone noone loves me its noone to hug me only passion i have

Is self mutilation and drugging...god how could you you destroyed me 

Now all i ask is the land of the dead i pray you deploy me