I Love You

I know you two probably hate me,

But you two are my brothers,

So just know that I love you,

More than our mother.

You two mean the world to me, 

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you,

I am really sorry,

I never meant to.

I never wanted to leave you guys,

Trust me, it's not because of you,

I never wanted to leave,

Believe me, it's true.

I know all we did was fight,

When we used to live there,

But I never meant any of it,

Because I care.

I remember what we went through,

What our mother did to us,

But that's in the past,

So don't make a fuss.

I know I haven't seen you since the day I left,

But we do see each other here and there,

I just miss you guys,

It isn't fair.

I know I always have chances to see you,

And I still never visit you,

For that I apologize,

But you don't know what I'm going through.

It's not because of you,

It's because of our mother,

She ruins everything,

So I don't even bother.

To be honest,

I'm scared to go,

Back there,

You know?

It didn't go so well,

Last time I came to visit,

I sat by myself the whole time,

Hating every minute!

I love you guys,

I really do,

But if you really miss me,

Can't you show it, too?

Every time I see you,

You act like you hate me,

I apologize, okay!

It's not my fault, can't you see?

Please,

Stop making it seem like it's all me!

You know I would never hurt you,

But it's okay, I'll leave.

Just know that I love you.