But I love you

I wake up on the side of the bed

And feel as if I'm drowning

Even when you are asleep

You are suffocating

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

I stand next to you in the kitchen

And feel as if I'm choking

Even when you are silent

You are terrifying

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

You touch my arm

And I feel as if I'm burning

Even when you are gentle

It hurts

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

Everyday

I am walking on eggshells

Everyday

I am watching my back

Everyday

I am waiting and wondering

When the bruises will heal

And when they'll come back

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

Everyone 

Says your words aren't enough

Everyone

Says your promises are lies

Everyone

Is waiting, watching, worried

For what will happen if I leave you

And what will happen if I don't try

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

I am drowning

But I love you

I am choking

But I love you

I am burning

But I love you

I am dying

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

But I love you

I am leaving

Not because you say you love me

Not because I know that you don't

But

I am leaving

Because

I love me.