I love you

I could never forget you.

I can’t stop dreaming about you.

I just love you so much.

You mean so much to me.

But I forgot you.

I forgot you for a year,

after everything

I forgot it all

it left me sliding on ice for a year

And the descent was paralyzing

I see your face and your hands in my sleep

When I wake up

They are still there

They are still holding me down

I love you so much

You must love me to

That’s why you will never leave me

You mean so much to me.

Way too much

Now I love him

Now I feel safe

After years of healing

I feel strong again

I can trust now

That my load is lightened

And my trials and tribulations

no longer need to be mine alone

Now you are a shadow

Now you can love me as much as you want

because I don’t love you