I Love You

I Love You The most special words a guy could have said We'll live happily ever after, like those fairytales I've read Kiss me softly, whisper sweet nothings in my ear Flip the script, screaming yelling at me, Shhh the neighbors may hear Tell me you're sorry and kiss me goodnight They say he doesn't love me, but clearly that can't be right Make him a nice breakfast and serve it to him in bed Get mad because I woke him up and throw the plate at my head He's just cranky; he doesn't love me I refuse to believe But then he got out of bed, grabbed my neck and squeezed Crying, begging, pleading..I started to black out Woke up he was there, he loves me no doubt Roses, my favorite, the perfect way to make up He loves me, I know he does, I will not give up Three months, no problems, he has definately changed My friends say to leave him; he's crazy, he's derranged Don't listen to them I told myself, he loves me I can tell As I said, three months no problems, things are going well Walked into the bedroom, he was playing some game I wanted him to know I was there so I called his name What do you want, I'm busy you need to understand Now leave me alone and that's no question, I'm serious it's a command Snuck up behind him to greet him with a kiss What I thought would be a kiss was my face meeting his fist Didn't I tell you to leave me alone, he kicked me in my side Excruciating pain couldn't run, nowhere to hide Trying to crawl away before I received another blow He just had a bad day he loves me I know Another kick to my stomach, and then blow to my face Didn't get to tell him I'm pregnant but would he have reconsidered in that case Blows all over my body, to my baby, my self esteem I love him but maybe he doesn't love me maybe that's what this means This cannot be love, I don't think we're going to make it He's just mad or maybe upset but these blows, my body can't take it I know I'm nearing the end, all the hate in his eyes If only I had listened, if only I had realized He went into the drawer and grabbed his hand gun Put it to my chest, said I love you, then it was done I Love you The most special thing my guy could have said But who could have known these words would leave me and my baby dead If you or a loved one is a victim of domestic violence Take action, take a stand, refuse to live in silence You love him but there's a thin line between love and hate You may think he's sorry but the damage he could do, you underestimate Be brave, be strong, no love is worth the physical abuse and strife Do not let the abuse continue, it could cause you your life