not even a brokenheart

just a

forgottenheart

 

i just felt we

we connected

friendship of course, years of history us

but more

more ?

i thought

just from me though ?

 

and then

and then finding out the truth

damn you, Man

 

i forgot it i guess

forgot it, left it

far behind but

maybe it was still there

definitely still there, i guess

 

she brought Him up time and time again

and i was

over it ?

not over Him i mean

a great guy

‘they would be great’

and i suppose i really meant it

i know i did

i wanted her to be happy

because i really really

her

it’s more than friendship i suppose

 

i encouraged it

was happy for her

so so so happy, i urged her !

do

it

now

stop waiting, ask him!

sure he would say yes and i was happy with that

 

but even then

i think i thought

or

i saw myself

being the guy on the sidelines

just waiting for the perfect time

to jump in

i would be there for her

whatever

because

her

i

her

 

and then he said no

or

he denied

and even in doing that he was so decent

great guy

much respect

i couldn’t even feel happy because

great guy

much respect

 

and now today

it’s tuesday the 29th of may

a cold

dark

miserable day

and we met up

The 6 of Us

a solid day

and we sat

in the diner

next to one another

i slid in that booth without a second thought

it’s

her

and we talk and we laugh and

put hands on one another i guess

not weird

just

familiar ? comfortable.

it’s

her

 

and through social media

we connect

and

it’s not like a,

connect on social media, real life- nothing

no

this

we connect

i

her

it’s her

 

we just work

we joke

we laugh

our conversation

so natural

it’s

her

we just work

and maybe she’ll only ever see it as friendship

and i know she still-

i can’t right now

it would be wrong

out of place

too soon for her

not right

 

but i’m Right Here !

 

i love you