I made it

I ran my water to get ready to relax but then it hit me I just don't wanna be here I can't deal with my issues of life so I'll pay the ultimate price. I hope that God and my family forgive me but only God and I can feel my inner misery. What's so great about life anyway? The struggles the pain no sunshine but all this rain I'm tired of crying I'm tired of being ashamed. I've lost my true identity to lies of life but she's screaming to breathe again but she's so pure that life will eat her up so to protect her ill take her with me. I slit my wrist and watched the blood but nothing happened so I went deeper and still nothing happened so I slit my other wrist on the vein pulsating at me screaming at me to cut to cut deep. I watched the blood, felt the pain slipping away so I sat and cried then begin to think how my little brother would feel to knw I gave up to knw that I let life beat me. I can't do this but I'm too weak to move too cried out but this is it. I have no more left in me. Then God said, My Child why do you have so little faith and there was a knock at the door. I cried in his arms and released all of my pains to him. Don't let the devil take you because God is who made you. I made it.