I Miss You

I miss you. It hurt to see another couple passed me holding hands... all lovey dovey. Kissing each other cheek...caressing each other back... When I look to my side all that I see Is me... Holding my hand... Kissing my self... I miss you. Then I keep on my way then I see a newly wedding couple Happily jump in their limo that says: JUST MARRIED With a less than sign and a three at the end... Damn I wish I knew that feeling Laughing happily with their spouse... Telling how much they love each other. How they can wait to get home and touch each other Not In the sexual way but the intelligent way Reading each other thoughts Planning on how they are going to shape up their future together As one... Then I drop my head and keep on walking Deliberately trying to find a cure Cause I miss you to the point where My metabolism is slowly decreasing and My evaporating soul is just deteriorating My knees are weak... It seems like I have cancer And I stop going in for my treatment. I miss you. Slowly as I continue my walk I see a family... Well a family in the process A wife that is 6 months pregnant With her husband that always their by her side Even through the sick night. Holding her hair when the nausea feeling come Rubbing her stomach to feel their first child kick... It amazing. But damn I can’t have that. I in the process of making something out of my self But I can’t wait to have that... Have you by my side...Telling late at night how much you there for me How much you support me... And how much I support you Then you wait till I’m asleep and count all 72 eyelashes I have on my upper eye lid. Damn I miss you I miss your warm touch that makes me feel safe Your gorgeous laugh that takes away the pain Your star shining eyes that tell me everything is alright when you look at me Finally I make it to my destination And what I see make me break down and cry. A couple with the man on his on knee asking his soul mate To marry him... And she responds with teary eyes a hell yes…. I want that moment. The moment that tell me you’re going to be their forever. That you won’t leave me... So my insecure feeling of you leaving can vanished Cause you not going any where. And you hold me tight after I tell you yes Then you say let me come over tonight Cause I want to touch you Have an intercourse with you dream s Give oral sex to your vision Till you can’t speak any more cause You can’t believe I listen... I want that moment. Until then it is me and my poetry Dedicated to you because that How much I miss you.