I Miss You

Dear Grandfather,

I wish that I was able

To put a pause on time.

To take a step back,

And then press rewind.

And go back to all those moments

During which I should have said:

I need you in my life.

You’re important and I care.

You made me who I am.

Thank you for being there.

Is it too late now?

I’m sorry if I let you down.

I failed and now you’re not around.

 

I want to talk to you again.

To call you every now and then.

But instead I sit here miserably,

And I reminisce of when:

When I didn’t revere you’re laughter,

That I know so dearly miss,

When I didn’t appreciate your encouragement,

And life was filled with bliss,

 

I didn’t get to say these words,

That are now stuck in my head,

It seems you’re too far away

To ever understand.

Too far to see my bloodshot eyes

When I finally started to realize

How I took you

For granted.

Too far to hear my voice,

Even if I yell and shout,

Or scream while tearing

All my hair out.

 

But when I look to the heavens

And imagine your smiles,

I remember that no distance

No matter the miles,

Will put you too far

To be in my heart.

Where you currently are

And forever will be.

 

 

I didn’t get to say these words,

That are now stuck in my head,

It seems you’re too far away to ever understand:

Too far to see my bloodshot eyes,

When I finally started to realize,

How I took you for granted,

Too far to hear my voice,

Even if I yell and shout,

Or scream while tearing all my hair out,

But no distance, no matter the miles,

Will put you too far to be in my heart,

Where you currently are and forever will be,